A week of sorting/organizing

God bless the notion app for its uplifted my productive spirits. I always knew I was someone who needed a lot of structure. I love the to-dos and calendars and the agendas, and anything that tracks things. If I had flair and could stand the sight of my handwriting, I would still be riding that bullet journal wave. But for my own sake now, it’s best I keep everything digital.

So yeah. Here’s where I talk about how I have been sorting my life, sorta. But before I begin, I’d like to mention that my hair is slowly growing out of the awkward phase and I’ve been starting to wake up with my hair flat against my head, and trust me that’s a wonderful thing. It’s a nice way to start my day and it’s made all the difference in my life. So to the Hair gods, thank you.

Onwards! It's no surprise I have a spending problem. I buy myself a lot of things. And it’s all mostly online. As I’m slowly curating my closet and going to fleas/thrifts less, I’ve upped my spending in the last few months. It also doesn’t help that it’s mostly designer and international brands. SO. I’ve created a beautiful list (on the notion app) where I will begin to jot down and link every single item I want as they appear in my heart. And they will sit and remain there PATIENTLY waiting until I pick them from the litter at a reasonable time when I have notable grounds to purchase and that’s even IF it’s still deemed necessary to have because God knows how quickly I get over things. Baddaboom… Bless me and my weak heart.

Now, I don’t need to bore you all. But I’ve been budgeting, not so much tracking but more than anything I’m making sure my revolving credit utilization stays at about a 4% range. And that’s plenty of motive to skip on that $15 smoothie this week and just make it at home. My poor credit score has suffered enough and I’m just trying to plump her back up.

Next, I’ve been tracking my menstrual cycle even though I’m on an IUD and don’t really get regular periods, and let me just say it’s very detailed and specific. There is a point to this and it’s simply understanding my body, and not just when I get my “period” but every week of the month. It’s helped me be less hard and mean to myself when I do break out, feel tired, or feel moody. And It encourages me to feed and nurture myself differently because it all ties back to what part of my cycle I’m on. Some days I’ll need extra water or extra rest or extra exercise. And that’s cool.

Lastly, I want to put out the disclaimer that I do not at all have my life under wraps. This is only a blip. In fact, I’m anxious for the day when I will feel the messiest and most burnt out about everything. But I’m not taking everything so seriously. Yes, I need systems and I’m giving myself that because it works for me, but it’s not under any specific control or command. I’m just doing what feels good. I remind myself that this is all part of my self-care or ways I put myself first. Finding independence and choosing me has always been hard with the pressures of work, friends, and romantic relationships. So having these set-ups of standards instantly eliminates any future resentment or guilt about making too much time for other people and things. Because I DO want to be able to balance it all. And I’ll get there, I’m only 23 for God’s sake AND I’m a girl.

I hope you don’t mind the overshare. Download the notion app. Make a smoothie.